Do you ever reach a point in your life where you are discontented with how things are? You become complacent and accept things that you know should change, conditioning your future responses to past situations. That is what I have done. I have let past failures seep into my life and they have affected my current situations. I am so grateful for late night talks with people who care and for those little moments when you can take a step out of the monotony to make something better for yourself.
I am moving to Idaho in a month, but I am not going to wait that long to change the things I want to.
Sometimes you need to bloom where you're planted.
Unfortunately, I haven't really taken advantage of that in certain ways. Instead of working towards bettering myself, I have focused on imperfections. Instead of going for what I want, I have allowed my fears to chain me. Instead of loving unconditionally, I have only loved others who love unconditionally. Instead of trusting in the Lord, I have relied on a rotting and rusted framework of worldly supports.
No one is perfect, and chances are, I'll fall back into some ruts and have to dig myself out again someday, but isn't that what life's about; defining moments where you make changes to better yourself? I have to say I feel the most alive when I realize I need to make a change. It feels good... like shedding old skin or hole-filled leaves and faded petals so you can open your new eyes to the sun.
SO... I'm not ready for Thanksgiving break to be over.
I went with Tyler and his family up to Pine Valley, UT and we cut down two Christmas trees and one of them is in my house, specifically in my room. It was so much fun! Anyway... it's over now and I don't want to adjust. Three weeks until my boyfriend is back in town and then two more weeks until I am out of Las Vegas and moving to Rexburg.
I'm seriously considering selling my car. It has turned into a LEMON! And I can't make lemonade out of it. It's a rotten one...
So many things are gonna happen in the next month. I'm just trying to ride the wave I'm on and enjoy it instead of get bogged down by the crap.
Good things in my life: (in no particular order)
1. My Christmas Tree and the pine scent that wafts around my room 2. My primary kids 3. My BoYfRiEnD <3 4. My ceramics class 5. The gospel 6. Great friends and family that support me in my decisions and love me in spite of my faults 7. My guitar 8. I'm going to BYUI and being a MUSIC MAJOR! 9. I know what I want in my life and I am going for it.
Life is really good. Sometimes we just have to remind ourselves... and get back to daily prayer and scripture study.
Okay this is gonna be a long one. Brace yourself. I haven't updated my blog in SUCH a long time!!
Right now I'm kind of in a slump. I'm working, going to school and I feel like I can't ever catch up on everything I need to get done! Once I finish one project there's another one waiting to be tackled. I have recently been accepted to BYUI and am going for my music education degree with an emphasis in vocal performance.
A lot of things have changed since I last updated. I have new hair, new clothes, a new cat, new job, new car problems, a new COLLEGE! (Can't wait to get out of Vegas) and a new boyfriend. :)
(picture of us coming soon)
Anyway he's adorable... and I'm gonna keep him. ;)
So my list for today of things to do includes: -cleaning my room -finishing up my math homework -possibly going to checker auto parts for a new battery because mine was dead this morning when my sister tried to start it and take it to work, however because i'm cool and handy like that, i jump started it and drove it around for a while to get the battery recharged. im hoping i just forgot to shut the door tight last night and that messed it up. -do my french exam -do a french 'live session' -go to ceramics class -do laundry -read my scriptures
aaaaaaaaaand I think that just about covers it. No sense in getting overwhelmed, right? 'Cause I am. Calm down, Nikki, calm down haha ;).
Also, I love the song that plays on my blog and Tyler if you're reading this it makes me think of you <3.
Love you all! Thanks for reading! Expect more updates soon.
I went with my grandma to Lowe's today. We got some mulch, strawberry plants, a few vegetables, a ton of seed packets, and tomorrow we're going to build a garden box on the side of the house and start planting all kinds of tasty veggies in it. I'm really excited. It's going to be a fun project, and it will save us a lot of money!
I have been dealing with the WORST allergies lately. It has to be all the blooms. I can't wait 'til it goes away.
My face is seriously puffy because of it. It looks like I've been crying, and I haven't. Its actually kind of putting me in a bad mood. I wish I was somewhere other than my room in my PJ's tonight. Oh well...
Michael's been out for almost a year. I can't believe it.